nightmare

tau nightmare? pernah mengalaminya, ngga?
kayaknya semua orang pernah, deh, ya.
nightmare yang aku alami, semuanya berasal dari kesalahan aku sendiri. Semuanya berawal dari awal kelas 9. Aku terlalu santai. Aku kurang belajar. Setiap hari, aku pasti pulang sore. Main dulu di sekolah sama temen-temen. Begitu sampai rumah, cape. Cuma sempet ngerjain PR habis itu langsung tidur. ngga belajar. Ngerjain PR juga ngga semua selesai. ada yang bolong 1 atau 2 nomor. Hasilnya? nilai ngga maksimal. Tapi aku tetep cuek. Pas UN juga aku terlalu santai belajarnya. Ngga serius sama sekali. Dan akhirnya? Hasilnya buruk. Buruk banget. Sangat ngga sesuai dengan apa yang aku harapkan. Yang aku bisa lakukan cuma nangis. Dan berdoa semoga masih ada SMA negeri yang mau terima NEM segitu. Akhirnya aku kedepak dari pilihan 1 dan diterima di pilihan 2. Setiap hari, sepulang sekolah, aku selalu nangis. Aku belom bisa terima aku kedepak. Tiap hari aku selalu nagis dan curhat sama teman2 SMP tentang sekolah yang baru.
Dari situ aku belajar. Ngga ada gunanya aku nangis terus. Ini kesalahan aku. Dan aku sendiri yang harus tanggung jawab. Sekarang aku pengen bangkit. Dan semoga bisa, ya. -amin- :)

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westlife-flying without wings

[Shane:]
Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

[Mark:]
Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

[Shane:]
Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place

[Mark:]
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

[Shane:]
And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends

[Mark:]
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

Westlife-Shadows

Mornings after
Still lingers
Just waking up
I see a shadow of you
Making breakfast for two
I go driving
Past our place and
I see this girl walk by
I smell her perfume
For a moment I wish it was you
I'm not gonna tell ya
I'm not gonna say that I'm okay, no
I'm tryin' to get over
I'm tryin' to get far away from our mistakes

Chorus:
But I see shadows
Everywhere that I go
It's you, reminding me
Of how we were
Of how it was
I see shadows
Everywhere they follow
It's you and memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough of your shadows
Four months gone
I can't feel you
I don't understand it
Where did you go?
I hate that you're all that I know
I'm not gonna tell ya
I'm not gonna say that I'm okay, no
I'm tryin to get over
I'm tryin' to get far away from our mistakes

Chorus

You couldn't love me
So why won't you leave me
Shadows
Alone is the only place I want to be
I see shadows
Everywhere that I go
It's you, reminding me
Of how to love
I've had enough
I see shadows
Everywhere they follow
It's you, the memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough
Your shadows
It's you, the memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough of your shadows
Your shadows

Westlife-Forever

[All:]
I'll be loving you forever,
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never,
Even if you took my heart,
And tore it apart,
I would love you still, forever,

[Bryan:]
You are the sun,
You are my light,
And you're the last thing on my mind,
Before I go to sleep at night,
You're always round,
When I'm in need,
When trouble's on my mind,
You put my soul at ease,

There is no one in this world,
Who can love me like you do,
That is the reason that I,
Wanna spend forever with you,

[All:]
I'll be loving you forever,
Deep inside my heart you leave me never,
Even if you took my heart,
And tore it apart,
I would love you still, forever,

[Shane:]
We've had our fun,
We've made mistakes,
But who'd have guessed along that road,
We'd learn to give and take,
It's so much more than I could have dreamed,
Cause you make loving you, so easy for me,

There is no one in this world,
Who can love me like you do,
That is the reason that I,
Wanna spend forever with you,

[All:]
I'll be loving you forever,
Deep inside my heart you leave me never,
Even if you took my heart,
And tore it apart,
I would love you still, forever,

[Shane:]
And girl I pray you leave me, never,

[Mark:]
Cause this is the world, where lovers often go astray,
But if we love each other, we won't go that way,
So put your doubts aside,
Do what it takes to make it right,
I love you, forever, no-one can tear us apart,

[All: (Mark:)]
I'll be loving you forever, (forever)
Deep inside my heart you leave me never,
Even if you took my heart, (took my heart girl)
And tore it apart, (you tore it apart now)
I would love you still, forever,
And I'll be loving you forever, (forever)
Deep inside my heart you leave me never,
Even if you took my heart, (you took my heart girl)
And tore it apart, (you tore it apart now)
I would love you still, forever,
I'll be loving you forever,
Deep inside my heart you leave me never,
Even if you took my heart,
And tore it apart,
I would love you still, forever